Melancholic

And I don't know what to say anymore...Silence has been the safest home ...

I take a step forward and two back, reality is insisting on dragging me back to earth ...

My heart eager for the feeling of being content.

Overwhelmed by thoughts, and  fears.

Fear of losing something I never had.

Fear of being rational and losing all the charm of trying and experience 

Caged in a cell named "what if "

Being dreamy is a curse
I thought it's  a bless, but I guess everything has its dark side 

Fairy tales do not exist I know
Am not waiting for one
But I hoped and prayed for it
Fairy tales happen to those who suffered
Have not I suffered enough
Have not I had this kind heart
I believe I did no harm to anyone before
Have I?
Oh , life ain't fair I know, whatever
I don't want to talk about it
I aint waiting for some sort of superhero
Nor for a comforter
Sometimes I wish I were stone

Sometimes I think I am stone

Sometimes I wish I can get back to the old me
Sometimes I think it's better this way
Something bad is coming I can smell it in the air
And I just can't pretend it's not there
The last thing I wanna do is fight
Cause I will lose
Hoping for the best .
Oh, I'm kindda of failed at this test 

I believe that life is stealing away my energy 

I am not that patient anymore 

Sometimes I think why me!
Someone told me before .

In the in end, we all like an odd number
We shall come and leave alone 

A tear stands on the edge of my eyes
Confused where to go
I will just pretend it's the wind
Or maybe it's the ring of the end