for a thousand years

It's been like a month since last I wrote
It feels like a thousand years
Have my springs dried?
Or had my heart died?
I have no clue
the sky is fading to blue
and I died waiting for you
yesterday I had a dream
I saw you but I don't know
Who you are
what's your name
but you set my heart into flames
I read magical book
about dragons, nations
innocent people were killed
but I know life is not fair
and I won't let my heart into despair
you know what I really miss
is a warm touch
cheek that blush
and innocent heart
that will make my harshness crush
I am good at pushing people away
If I felt that they are imposed in my way
I am sick of watching
I want to be part in the play